Grief

It has been four weeks since the death of my brother. Some days go on as if it had never happened, yet there are days, moments that pain of it all is still too real and fresh.

I have all of these "I wonder if's". Maybe it would help to get them out into the fresh air.

I wonder if....

• J.C. really wanted to leave this life. Or was it truly an accident.
• Although the physical pain of his life is gone, when he looks down on us...does it hurt to see what he left behind?
• He knew how much he was loved.
• Our childhood had been different, would he have been a different man.
• We will ever be able to convey to Ty just how much his daddy loved him.