Cowboy Logic

While we were in Colorado last weekend (Memorial Day weekend), Phillip and I had the opportunity to go out to dinner to celebrate our anniversary. Not being fancy folk we went to a casual steak house, Salt Grass. It was a relaxing dinner with great company and wonderful food, made even better knowing that our daughter was being tended to by loving family members. (I have an extremely difficult time trusting outsiders "non-family" to tend her. Unless it is at the CDC on base, they are regulated and watched pretty good. Seriously, have you ever walked in to any CDC and seen all the monitors?!)

Anyhoo...back to my topic. I noticed on the wall a great quote that I wrote down because I intend to use it in my email signature.

Cowboy Logic:
"Be sure to taste your words before you SPIT them OUT!"

As a favorite comedian of ours is known to say; "I had to tell you that story to tell you this story."

I really struggled whether or not to share this, but decided that since I am still chewing on this one almost five days later that it would probably help to get it off my chest.

Thursday as I was leaving the aquatic center after a good workout I was red faced and sweat drenched. Walking to my car I passed a young family of four. The little boy asked his overweight father, "Daddy why is her face so red?"

The father responded, "She is so big it was probably a workout just to climb the stairs to get to the treadmills" while laughing and elbowing his overweight spouse.

Some who have known me for years will find it hard to believe that I didn't stop and give this gentleman a tongue lashing. I was too mortified! In the days since I have run the full spectrum of emotions.

After the initial shock wore off I was embarrassed. Yes embarrassed, because I am that fat chick you see in gyms with all the body parts that jiggle like a bowl of jelly with every step. Then I was infuriated! How dare somebody who is in the same boat as me as far as being heavy make such a comment. Surely they must have felt the sting of such comments before! And what kind of example are they setting for their children? In stewing over the situation I have tried to put myself in his shoes. What would I have said to Meghan had she posed such a question? I feel rather confidant that I would have said something along the lines of, "She just had a really great workout." After the anger subsided the self doubt tried to settle in, but as I am proud of my accomplishment it didn't last long. I know that what I am doing today will better my future so I will not stop. Finally the pride set in. I am proud of my reaction. I could have unleashed a fury on that man, but then I would have felt guilty later and would have had to repent of my unChristlike actions. I am proud that even though I jiggle when I wiggle I still put on my workout gear and give it my all. I am proud of the subtle changes I am seeing in my body and in my attitude. Still...there is a bit of anger.....I am working on that....

Cowboy logic to live by...taste those words before spitting them out, if they are bitter or nasty tasting to you, imagine how they feel to the person receiving them....